I haven’t been attracted to or had feelings romantically for anyone in a really long time. I kinda miss the feeling of having a crush, you know? Every time someone asks me to do a date type thing, I just think “I could be working” or “that’s using gas, which is money”. I miss having someone that I throw a project down, jump in the car, drive to some random coffee shop, and just enjoy their presence without having these logical thoughts for.
Maybe the lump of brain that makes me love is broken. Or too full of ferrets.